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hello blog, and hello world.

i wonder who reads here anymore.

i hate how i consistently blog about unhappy stuff, busy stuff, pessimistic stuff.

anyways my life...needs excitement...and my life...i need more time...i've got so many things to do everyday i dont even have time to run ahhhhhh

i like to run, i really do but am so lazy, the last 7 rounds at the stadium almost robbed me of my breath..

woohoo ok back to my website reconstruction thingy....no shit and no sweat omggggg

tick tocks n whatnots

continuity? dont knw what moves me anymore, right nw what i hv in my mind is what do i hv to do tmr to take me further? n what do i hv to do within this yr to push forward? n what shld i do 5 yrs frm nw? hw can i grow up even faster? hw do i quicken this phase to maximum n go beyond that cap. no doubt this recent breakup has made me lose my ability to feel? dont know if there is a permanence to this but right nw my mind is just..well..blank? donno whr do i go frm here but my life has successfully transformed into a life-less workful one whr i spend holidays n evening hrs staring at the 20 inch screen doing things tt numbs me frm the emptiness tt i shld b feeling...hw poetic.

purdue purdue

on wednesday i sat down with my coach at the starbucks cafe at UE Square to have a 2 1/2 hour session with my export coach.. and then i had a flashback of my student days studying at the Starbucks cafe near Huntington Beach...that was pretty cool...

and then last night i sat in a class of working adults and had a 3 1/2 hour lesson. This is draining, considering I just returned from a tight-scheduled trip from Thailand..(supposedly for leisure but ended up being a semi work-trip kinda thing)

going back to school is so exciting, and this time i go to school with a different mindset honestly...i enjoyed my student days in uni and had a tremendous amount of fun...but this is...learning too...maybe not too fun, but definitely enriching...

having priorities in life is good...but i think somewhere along the line u just cant stop wanting more, to know more, to achieve more, to get to that somewhere that paints a perfect rosy picture...like the bed of beautiful roses among the torns and shrubs along the path....

quote

“They say honesty is the best policy. Happiness is the best revenge. Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. And laughter is the best medicine. They say ignorance is bliss. Knowledge is power. Necessity is the mother of invention. And all the world is a stage. Or a banquet. Or an illusion. Or whatever you make of it. They say you can’t fight City Hall. They say every man has his price. Money talks. Sex sells. Power corrupts. Truth hurts. Psychiatry kills. And Time heals all wounds. They say it’s a dog-eat-dog world. The early bird gets the worm. The grass is always greener on the other side. And when I was your age I had to walk to school in the snow uphill both ways… So remember to stop and smell the roses. For today is the first day of the rest of your life. And don’t you worry about what they say.”-Tatsuya Ishida

CHIO-NESS!

which one?

of rationality and reality

so bored at work...office is very quiet and i feel totally sleepy.....wish i could just plonk down and sleeppp...

havent fallen sick in the longest time and last week i did...and till now i have yet to recover.....

my mind is sleepy, my brain tells me not to bother, my heart keeps me wondering....my hands do the things that my brain tells me not to....

sigh

sigh

sigh

okay my newest (and the most long standing) resolution is to LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!

nevermind the fact that i have said this to the people around me for the longest time but still something has to be done..eh should be MUST be done....hahahah sounds funny...

ookay i love my life... okay bubbye

comprehension

i cannot quite comprehend my doings now.

my hands are not where my heart is, and my mind is not where my brain resides.

sometimes i even feel the dysfunctionality of my brain...

the inner complexity demands not what my actions.

i guess i operate based on functionality, but my emotions are clouded by what is so-called workable.

i hope this never ends